Composing is an immensely ego-gratifying process. I remember
the first time I conducted musicians playing my music, and it really was
extremely fulfilling to hear everything that I had spent so much time on come
off the page and move with its own life. Suddenly, the worlds I had only
imagined were manifest in this world. Exciting!
However, I also derive a great deal of pleasure from
improvising, and especially from playing with other improvisers. The thrill of
the perfect collective improvisation rivals that of composing, although there
is a very different process going on. Whereas writing builds up my ego, in a group
improvisation the ego is relinquished to the whole, each individual musician
sacrificing their own personal expression to that of the collective.
Things get really sticky when one enters the area between the
two - structured improvisation. Although the term may sound contradictory,
there is a sizable body of work in this category, including jazz tunes,
post-Cagean conceptual and graphic pieces, and many different genres of
classical "world" music, including Indian, Indonesian, and African traditions.
The degree of strictness in the parameters of these improvisations varies, but the idea is the
same - to lead the musician into the most successful musical expression possible.
Therefore, it is necessary to combine the two worlds of
improvisation and composition, and consequently use the ego in an
"egoless" way. This is difficult thing to accomplish, to balance the
line between the decision-making of the composer and the decision-making of the improvisers.
I have found in listening to structured improvisations that the most interesting
pieces allow the musicians to transcend their own limitations and create
something that otherwise wouldn't have been possible. It is easy to fall into
traps like composing improvisations for "effects" (something I have
fallen into more times than I'm willing to admit). Although in and of itself
there is nothing wrong with this, it's not the best balance between the two
worlds. The job of the composer in this situation, as Anthony Braxton said
(somewhere), is to establish new structural realities and new landscapes for
the players. Basically, it is important to give musicians stable parameters --
in the form of melodies, rhythms, harmonies (changes), formal structures, lyrics,
performance instructions, graphics -- which enable them to realize themselves
to the fullest. Easier said than done.